You’re going a zillion miles an hour, checking items off your To Do list. You feel like a robot fueled by caffeine and anxiety. Whether they’re tasks at work or at home, all seem important. Your heart desires to spend time in scripture and in prayer. That’s what makes your heart sing.
You understand that walking with Christ daily means listening to him through his Word. After all, good relationships involve two-way communication. That means not only talking to God, but listening to him through scripture.
If you have a relationship where one person does all the talking and the other all the listening, it suffers. The connection is unhealthy and imbalanced. So why would you want such a lopsided relationship with your lifeline?
But your To Do list calls you, your employer and kids and spouse need you, and the noise of living in a fast-paced society gnaws at your soul.
Last week I read the Martha and Mary passage seven or eight times (Luke 10-38-42). It spoke softly to my heart. I’m pretty good at spending time in scripture most mornings and evenings because I chose to make listening to Jesus a priority many years ago.
But I struggle horribly with feeling like a human doing instead of a human being. I’m so driven sometimes that I feel like a whirlwind of activity as I busily check off things I felt compelled to do. Much like Martha. Yet I truly desire to be wholeheartedly devoted to worship like Mary.
Here are some questions that help me:
– Are you a human being or a human doing? Our society is fast-paced and focused on the almighty dollar (meaning the worship of money and things, which are idols) but scripture encourages us to focus on Jesus.
– How important is it?
I ask myself this question about tasks or events that come up. I think I’ll start using a numbering system. I know that prioritizing works for some people, but I’m going to experiment with a numbering system, assigning a number from 1-10 to each activity.
At the top of each list, I’m going to put “Spending time with Jesus” and assign a 10 to it, meaning it is the most important thing I want to accomplish that day. Maybe with these strategies, I can remember that the most important thing in my life is to sit as Jesus’ feet, like Mary did.
Her sister was angry, controlling, resentful and codependent as she asked Jesus to set Mary straight. Gently yet firmly, he answered, “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” (Bold print my own.)
Lord, help us to seek your face and to sit at your feet. Help us to prioritize our lives, putting you as number one.